Hello You Tube this is Banded Baby Mama. It’s December 16th, 2010. Just put the baby to bed. Still have a little bit of time to do a video for you guys to update you on how things are going. So, last time we talked [xx] some has to keep glancing down. But, last we talked was [xx]14 th, i was down 5lbs.
I started my pre op diet early, trying to get a jump start on getting things together. And it did good on the third the fourteen did good on the fifteen x everything to it [x] Was so proud. I was down five pounds. I jumped on the scale this morning. I was down seven pounds. Super excited. So what did i do?
I celebrated with food. So i blew it out of the water today. It’s not good that i chose to not follow my diet today. I am going to take it as a learning experience. I’m going to learn from it and i totally know where i went wrong, and i know what i did wrong. through all of that. I slipped back into old patterns, and they aren’t that old because it’s only been two days that i’ve been trying to do well, and i already slipped back.
But basically the first thing i did wrong was have bad food in my house. I have junk food here from the weekend when i had a party with some friends. I didn’t get rid of it, and i should have gotten rid of it right after the party. I should have sent it home with people, should have never kept any of it.
And when i decided that i was going to eat sensibly now i should have got read of bad food to my house had not had a reserve of it in my cupboard. That was my first problem. So, anyone out there. Just thinking of starting a plan, get rid of the junk food in your house. I personally am not strong enough to control myself.
Maybe down the road i will be, maybe when Maybe once i have my band, then i will be. Maybe once i’ve been exercising and working hard. But right now, when you’re first starting diet and your going through all that withdrawal. I am totally a food addict, i believe. I love junk food. I am addicted to sugar.
Sweets, i want them. I crave them all the time. For me to have that at my house was just a bad idea. I’ll say i’m a food junkie. A junk food junkie for sure. So having junk food in my house is like a i have got it living in the crack house get rid of the junk food people the next think i did wrong is when i I have bad food.
I’m like, I’m only gonna have like a couple pieces of licorice. That’s it. I’ll portion size it all. Make it small. I’ll make it fit. I won’t eat a lot, I’ll just taste it a little bit and then my craving will go away. No. Once you open open those flood gates, it didn’t stop for me. So once I made that one mistake in my day.
I had that little bit of licorice. I felt bad I felt guilty for it and I thought you know this is terrible you know what I already [x] my day I am in a my way. What ever I do, I continue to eat that for the whole day and make it my excuse. Oh, [xx] you know messed up today so I’ll just start fresh tomorrow.
I don’t know if any of you out there do that. Once you make one mistake You blow your whole day out of the water. But I’m definitely that person, so please let me know if you’re that person too and I’m not alone. I will get back on track tomorrow. I think I’m going to do a detox tomorrow. [xx] did her 12 days of Christmas.